Narayanee

03 6 / 2012

5 years since I last saw you…

My one true rock
a shoulder in which I could rely for whenever I was angry
or when I needed a good cry.

You were the strongest man that I had ever knew
but when I saw you in that hospital bed
your feet were turning so blue.

“There’s no chance”
the doctor would say no matter what we could do
we could not make you stay.

Unresponsive, unable to speak,
unable to feel anything but pain
everything that they could do would all be in vain.

“Stop the test” we ordered
“Keep him as comfortable as can be”
as hard as it was for us we had to set him free.

The days slowly drifted by all that I could do
was hold your hand and cry.

For here is this man
the strongest man I ever knew
and I couldn’t figure out
how I’d survive in this crazy world without you.

And as you took your final breathes
tears formed in your eyes
for as hard as it was for us
it was hard for you to say goodbye.

God said it was your time
so you slowly picked your hands up
and held them to the sky
you took your final breathes
and just like that…..you were gone.

I miss your more and more each day
no matter what I do
the world is a far lonelier place
without you.

I love you daddy
and I’ll miss you
more than you’ll ever know
as much as this hurts me